I am incredibly nervous and so excited all at the same time the feeling you get when you board the airplane to see a friend or family member that you have not in a long time. That butterfly in the tummy feeling.
We said yes this morning to parent two kids from Ghana West Africa. We get to be their mommy and daddy. Their story we will keep quiet about because its theirs to share one day. They are brother and sister. Our little girl is 7 and she just has great eyebrows and is just tender and sweet looking. Our son is 3 will 4 in November and has some chubby cheeks we have had people tell us he looks like our son A with he checks and facial expressions.
It seems so surreal, because international adoption is so unpredictable we didn't want to tell anyone about them until we knew for sure that we were going to pursue them but we found out about them early August and began to pray that the Lord would open a way if those are our children if not that he would erase them from my mind. Guess what I had a total peace to just live our lives and it was not an overwhelming feeling I did not obsess over them. I just put it right before GOD and left it there.
He brought it back just in time our home study was completed and approved and they were on the waiting list and we knew after reading about them they should be in our family.
You know how people say they know that those kids are theirs right when they see them. I saw picture of the kids back in August and for me it was not that way. Not that they are not cute they are adorable and sweet. I just didn't want my heart to be crushed in the way it has been these few months by seeing kids on the waiting list and saying yes to them to find out we could not adopt them.
Always still possible but I have to TRUST this is God and He is good to us always.
Still today as I sit at the computer in awe of what HE is trusting Him for, I still wonder how on earth He will provide for this one. To me the number seems like a huge mountain. It can be very discouraging to look at and even weight out, however I can not deny His goodness.
ps. Remember the miracle we were asking for about our house that God would sell it or do something big with our mortgage. Well okay He didn't pay it all off. But we got a modification (meaning the changed our loan for free and for the life of the loan) and are saving close to 500 bucks a month. Hello Miracle in my book ;0!