My life lately has been overtaken by worries of lives circumstances. Many things happened to us last weekend that deflated us financially where we just feel overwhelmed. Too many to mention. However in the midst of calamity......God speaks. And lately its been through my prayer life on the floor, weeping for Africa. I dream of the children, the endless children of dying parents of AIDS, I ache for the Orphaned babies and there older siblings left to care for them. For a few weeks this feeling has been strong HUGE and I am reminded of it every time I look at my Ruby’s eyes. What can "I"do? I can adopt more!!?? When I pray for this something happens in our circumstances that sets us back even farther than where we can swim. My wonderful husband had the opportunity to listen to my heart one evening over a cup of Starbucks as I poured out my ache, and my confusion of why me, what can I do with this burden. And why not someone with more money and no responsibility. You know what he said......you will love it......He told me to go to Africa! We meet as missionaries and he knows my heart has always been to go back to the field. However I know that we are to be here for now. My mate suggested I take a trip once a year...or at least start out with that idea, and go to Africa as a short term mission, well for a week, but he would be willing to take vacation time and hold down the fort so God can use me there. I felt a huge relief when he said that, It been a huge desire and I have never asked him to go, I have my babies and this is my mission field now.....but It doesn’t mean that I cant take a week a year and see where God can lead me in the field of the fatherless. My hope to one day take them along. I have begun looking at diffrent short term missions, and one that really toches me is called 5 for 50. The writer and missionary Tom Davis, really inspires me and puts a voice to my hearts desire for the poor. I feel that I am on a mountain top with my arms wide open and I am saying "here I am Lord send me!" (but just for a week :) My wonderful husband has also inspired me to see where we can work together as a family right here in our community, I know he is a wise man right!
If you have any suggestions for me about missions that your church is putting together to Africa, I would love to know. For now pray for me.